A point in the right direction

The past year I have been dealing with what direction life is going to take me. And through this year I have had lots of peep holes into what my future will look like. Some peep holes show very encouraging progress and some have been a closing door. Not to say that these closing doors were not encouraging, but they took some getting use to.

One of the major turning points in my life has definitely been the new addition to our family. It has turned my perspective to long turn satisfactions and not selfish momentary fulfilment. I am excited about the upcoming changes our family is going through, although at times I get very overwhelmed.
Thankfully I have been surrounded by people who have been able to give me advice and helped point me in the direction I need to go. And sometimes that advice makes me mad, and sometimes that advice makes me silent and reflective. But I am learning it doesn't matter what I want to hear, it is what I need to hear 99.9% of the time.

One example is last week I was feeling very overwhelmed with all the new "things" a baby changes in your life. There is the financial, emotional,and spacial needs and fears which comes along once the time of the baby's arrival gets closer and closer. So I decided I would text my mom and somewhat vent to her, hoping to get some sympathy out of her. Did my mom cuddle me over the phone and tell me all the things I wanted to hear? No. She told me " you need to read Philippians 4:6-9." So I complained and just shook my head in frustration. But once I took a deep breath, I realized it was the perfect advice for my freak out session.

Another example is today Josiah and I were eating lunch out. We were chatting about our usual things, jobs, hobbies, life....when I decided to take the conversation to one specific topic. At the end of my say in this topic I said, "I feel the door is beginning to close, but I am still waiting for a better sign before I completely close the door on this situation." We sat in silence for a few moments and then Josiah said something that was exactly "the sign" I needed to hear. He went on to explain a flash of a vision he was just given. He described a cartoon drawing of me pushing this massive door closed with all my might, but there was still a tiny gap which prevented it from being closed. On the other side of the door was a hand who only had their index finger pushing on the door, which then made it close. This picture showed me that I was trying and trying with all my might to push this chapter in my life closed, but I was in a way waiting for the other person to help me close it. But all the other person had to do was use their index finger, no strength, to close the door. And this is how the situation really is. I am trying with all my strength and power to prove to someone what I can do, but they are not ready or willing to listen. Wow! I would say there is my sign I have been waiting for.

I have been waiting for flashing lights and honking horns to get my attention to these certain chapters in my life. But God has sent me people along the way with words of wisdom, and cartoon visions to point me in the right direction. I am thankful to all the many people who have prayed for me to find my place in this world. I ask that you continue to pray I be accepting to the words and directions which God is leading me to.